Hello everyone! Long time no blog post. Today I am going to write about where I’m at after a rather hectic few months.
I feel like I have been travelling at a million miles an hour for the past nine months to get to where I am today. After returning from university last December, I was in a pretty bad way in terms of my health through a lack of self-care and major stress, and there was a time shortly after returning home that I felt very angry with myself for not making it work. This gap year has been a massive step for me in terms of life lessons, maturing and grasping that it is ok to hit pause and finding a good balance of work : life : sport, and others : self.
Here are some of my achievements from the past 9 months:
- Receiving an offer for a place studying Physiotherapy
- Applying to the Great British Bake Off, and got through to interviews
- Finally getting some answers on my very long term back problems
- Getting a major promotion at work
- Doing a ride leading qualification to take groups of people out cycling
- Getting my hair cut every 6-8 weeks
- Doing my own nails at least once a month
- Implementing a daily facial skin-care routine
- Reconnecting with my Mum
- Reading over 10 books that were just sitting on my shelf waiting to be read
- Going for coffee with my dad and I even enjoyed cake with it (more than once!)
- Joining a different gym with a close friend, and enjoying weight/core training to build strength alongside the cardio I already did
- Sorting out my clothes, selling and giving those I don’t wear to charity, and treating myself to new ones
Big or small, these are all achievements that matter to me, I am proud of myself for making self improvements, and developing my ability to enjoy the small things in life, without feeling like I am doing something that isn’t 1000% necessary or that the time or money could be spent more efficiently elsewhere.
Perhaps one of my biggest achievements has been throwing out my old GCSE and A-level work (in the recycling because it was A LOT of paper). This may be meaningless to most people, but the (now ridiculous) explanation I had given myself for keeping it all was as a trophy of my achievement for GCSE, and a reminder of my short-comings and underperformance at A level. It was putting massive limitations on my self worth and confidence, and by getting rid of it all I feel like a weight of self hatred has been lifted.
At the moment I am relaxing in Spain on holiday enjoying a break. I am one of those people who finds it hard to relax without feeling like there are important things I should be doing instead of ‘selfishly’ relaxing. Taking some time off work is very important to me before I start at university, because I don’t want to be stressed and run down when I get there, I’d rather be well rested, excited and ready to work really hard at a subject I have grown a great passion for.
I am still learning, and there are still more areas I would like to improve in, especially when I return to university which includes:
- Making and developing more friendships
- Get back into a structured running routine
- Being open minded, making spontaneous social plans
- Joining a club and some societies at uni and making sure I stick to the commitment
- Preparing healthy and nutritious meals, and taking the time to enjoy them
- Being the best physiotherapist that I can be
- Asking for help when I am struggling
This post has been a really useful reflection for me, I would recommend writing achievement and aspiration lists like this for everyone to boost positivity and your outlook. That’s all for this time, I won’t leave it as long until my next post!